I couldn't sleep and it was UGLY. I would close my eyes for about 5 minutes and something, anything would happen or make a sound and I was WIDE awake again....another 30 - 45 minutes wasted to get back to that point. UGhhhhhhh!
So, since I couldn't sleep, I started surfing the TV and ran across one of those Time Life Infomercials for one of their music CD sets.
Normally you wouldn't find me within 10 channels of one of those things. This one grabbed my attention - what there was of it in a sleep deprived mind - because it was loaded with Old rock.
Since I couldn't afford to buy the set I figured I would surf around and go to my friends over at MixPod and see what kind of Musical bits I could present you today.
And
Maybe one or two will have a something from me written before them. Well, we will see about that as the moment strikes me.
Enjoy these: This will run about 25 - 30 minutes of straight play time.
Since this is my Blog I figured the First song should be : Danny's Song
If you don't have time for this list right now - go to the bottom of the page and play that one at least, then when you get home and have time for a relaxing cup of coffee or tea put your feet up and listen to this set.
Music Playlist at MixPod.com
There is more. Read on and Listen if you like?
This Bit could make a post of its own but being that it was inspired doing this search, I am going to place it all here together.
Growing up we all Look at our parents and for a time try and emulate them.
How we walk, talk, react; just a few ways that we follow in their steps.
Once I got past the initial stage of emulating my father, somewhere, somehow, I began to distance myself. Looking back............ I have No idea exactly when it started but it did. We both have gotten Older, much Older. Over that time distance grew and grew and at some point I think we have ended up Back to Back. The only thing we had in common was our LOVE for College Football.
Thank God for that!
Back to Back, now who is emulating who?
I think, to this day, that my parents are still trying to figure out who and what I am. In my 40's now and getting ready to add another year and they still haven't figured that out.
I can't find any fault in that because......... Hell, I'm still trying to figure out who and what I am!
I DO know that with everything that has happened in my Life over the last few years, I have changed. I LOOK at things. I mean LOOK, deep down as far as I can. Not just for myself but for MY family.
I don't have time for BULL SHIT (got that from him but learned that lesson way to late). Don't waste my time as I don't know how much I have left.
I'm not dieing today or tomorrow (knock on wood) but having Later Stage Emphysema and on Oxygen 24/7, I know that that S.O.B. is just around the corner keeping an eye on me if I am not careful and take care of myself.
Little late, but I have learned to LOOK at the person, the whos, the whys, and the wherefores that have caused things to happen. Looking back - I can say: I Was Wrong. Not with all of it but with a big bunch of it. (This actually applies to both of them - My Mother and Father.)
Where is this going?
I don't know. I am writing this as I listen to the clip you will find below.
Over the years I have not been the only one to change.
Remember - Back to Back, who is emulating who?
The Family (parents, brothers, sister-in-laws, kids) has been put in a Wringer and twisted and scrunched and squeezed till there ain't much left but stubbornness to stand and say "Is that all you got?"
In a 3 month period from March 09 - my youngest brother passed away at 33 with a heart attack (he had health issues, not size, but was unexpected), two weeks apart I was diagnosed with Later Stage Emphysema and my other brother's wife was diagnosed with an unknown Cancer (she passed away in Dec 09 (after Christmas, for her boys) less than 9 months later).
Don't Give me or the Family Condolences, as this was not written for that but to show you, tell you, that things happen to change perception and understanding.
I see more of myself in my father and more of him in me than I ever have in the past. I am not just like him. I like to think I took the good bits and kept them and took the bad and fixed em (or made them as good as I could). Oh, and if anyone tells you they don't have "ANY" bad things -- Call "BULL SHIT" and tell them you don't have time for it.
We all have things to fix. I've been fixing a bunch and I know I still have things to work on.
I could run on this topic all day........ especially since it is the Only Running I can do now. LOL
Listen to the Song and Enjoy: I dedicate this to my Dad - Danny Neal Winfield Sr.
Music Playlist at MixPod.com
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Just chatting away in the middle of the night again...you used to do that when you were little BUT then you were asleep.....TEST TEST TEST
ReplyDeleteDJ: Great read; some good music, but still not Barry. Bad/good thing about those late night/early morning episodes when we can't sleep is that they produce some of our best and productive thoughts and writings; we don't have the competition from the going ons in our daily life, so we are much more open minded and melancholy (sp). I like to think we all take the best of our fathers and mothers, but in the end, we become better cuz we learn more from our kids; their innocence and bubbly thoughts and actions is a poweful incentive. Son; you have a gift with your writing talent; you have still got a lifetime ahead of you to make a contribution. Again; good read; gotta run; see ya in the Big 12 championship game.
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I have sleepless nights like these too, and I am one to stop and watch infomercials myself, Danny Boy. I did the exact same thing you did, too. I saw this great set, went on the net and got the playlist and then downloaded each song from either Kaaza or LimeWire (when I used to use those sites).
ReplyDeleteGreat way to save $30, and shit, some of those CDs are my favorites.